Sunday, October 16, 2016

The 'Because' behind every independent woman...!

Yes,
I'm a matured, strong minded, responsible, independent woman.!
It doesn't mean I do not show my innocent side.!
I wake up late and wish to spend the rest of the day in my bed. Yet I go to work. Because, I am aware that I have my bills to be paid at the end of every month.

I love to make new friends and still stay in my limits. Because I feel I need my privacy and maintain my secrets.

I crack stupid jokes and laugh all alone. Because I enjoy my sense of humor and do not expect every other soul to do the same. I understand there are jokes for which I don't even give a shit.

I love my job and I am dedicated to it. But it doesn't mean I have to think about my job 24/7. Job is a way to earn money to keep my life running smooth. When I don't have a life why would I even think of a way to earn money. I know to segregate work and life.

I do wander around with my friends late at night and update in facebook. It doesn't mean I am showing off rather I'm sharing my happiness with the world I know. Because when I see check-in update by my friend I feel happy for her/him as he/she is making time for his/her own peace. I want people to feel happy for me.

I make mistakes. "To err is human" was taught to me when I was 5 years old. But I do not Jus stop there. I learn from my mistakes. Next time I may commit a mistake but not the same.

I love taking naps and most of the time the sound sleep. That gives me a ray of hope. That I am still alive and I woke up from my sleep.

I, sometimes wanted to quit my job and go to a far away place where no one can find me. I wish to break all my communication with the world and live few days in solace. It doesn't mean I do not love my family or I am scared of responsibilities. But because I wanted to give myself some time and fresh air to forget the materialistic world and live the present without a plan. Like a wild stream that gushes through the forest.

I see moon, I see stars, I talk about galaxies, I talk about aliens, I feel the super natural, I feel the breeze washing my face leaving my hair messed up. I love to sit over the edge of the water tank that's constructed in the terrace of a 6 floor apartment, I listen to the soft murmers of the birds, I listen to the melodious medleys. I wear Saree. I, be simple. I cook, I keep my place clean.
I go to pub, I love parties, I dress up, I talk alot, I talk cinema, I talk porn, I crack double meaning jokes, I dance like mad and scream like a badass. I prank my friends and scold them whole lot. I wear shorts, I wear skirts. I throw things around my room and sleep in one corner of the room leaving the rest for my clothes and toys.
I love the silence and the noise. I love both depending on my mood. And my mood swings every second. That's me.

I have a boyfriend and I wish the world know about it but I still be independent when it comes to paying my bills, deciding my career, choosing my food, dressing up, sitting idle, being in my own comfort zone, saying no to outings etc etc etc. I still love him madly and cannot accept someone raising a finger against him. Because, I feel my mental health is important to drive any relationship for which I need to spend time with my own self.

I do all stupidity. I am perfect in my own way. I do not hurt others intentionally. I do not interfere in others business. I stay in my limits I expect the same from others. I long for shoulders to cry on but when I get one I wipe my tears and wear a mask as I do not cry in front of others.

Because, I am an independent woman...!

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